The letter was sitting in front of the counter of the bath house entrance. Shiro looked at the velvety red envelope as he sweared to listen to someone getting through the door to drop that strange letter. It was too early for the mail man to pass, and as soon as he turned the envelope, there was no address and even less a stamp for it.

A shadow warrior like him had a very strong routine when it comes to training. This included endurance tests under the cold waterfall at the bath house garden, heavy weight lifting involving every limb of his body, extreme body jump and stunts at the middle of the mountain forest and even long term meditation to keep the lust and concentration in his mind at a balanced but cherishable levels. All but naked, like his former sensei Ishikawa had taught him since he became his pupil when he was a lone wolf kid.

He looked at the red letter with reluctance. He was training hard, like every dawn after waking up and before breakfast, and he suddenly felt that swift unfelt coming, as some sort of kiddy joke. There was nothing more bothering for a warrior with passion and good looks than an unexpected message.

He could only but ponder "Who or what can it be?"
A mission perhaps? Probably someone seeking his services?
The answer was simply one flap away.

February the 4th

I cannot believe it was a year ever since Okuro joined the dojo. I feel so proud for him. His hair has grown, his body seems to have grown too, and his relationship with his fellow student Yuki has recovered from that time where I used the Rokujusan scroll...
I still remember the first day where he entered, begging, pledging and stripping his clothes in front of me in order to show his enthusiasm. Reminds me the days where I used to work hard and show to my sensei all my progress. I had to stop writing for a moment just to shed a tear of joy. All that progress just makes me feel proud of that young boy. I once said he had promise, and I keep doing at it.

March the 13th:

I have been training for weeks on myself. These last two weeks, I had the help of my long time pupil and female assistant Saki Nomura to help me. We had been practising all kinds of poses from each book possible for my evaluation test. I wish Ishikawa-sensei was here to correct me like the old times... aren't I a nostalgic man?
But of course, my training wasn't just centered on the hips. Each day, from dawn to dusk, I had to follow my extreme training plan in order to be fit and healthy, as well as fertile: a thousand push ups, carrying a boulder across the hill beneath the dojo, meditation under a cascade of cold water, sex training with Saki, and hand to hand combat training completely naked. The price of excellence is nothing cheap or easy to grab on, indeed. I must give my best, so I can keep teaching and guarding these sacred writings about the paths of good lust and the most optimized way to breed any species. It is a risk I always have to take.

April 12th:

Just before a few weeks the test started, Okuro seemed to have a huge interest to take part on the test for the sex technique master title. He was lucky, as the students of high grade masters can do take part in most of the test, but of course, most of them quit due to the extreme difficulty these tasks involve.
I have been the last weeks giving intensive classes on the theory of the whole knowledge of the inpou or lewd acts. It is clear that Okuro must clear his mind and realize the purpose of a sex technique user is to fulfill the task during times of peace, that is being a source of life and prosperity next to the calm, thin veil that peace is easy to break.
I had him to memorize each important step during each technique by memory and in the exact same order. One fail and he had to repeat all these basic knowledge for a sensei.
The promotion test involve several trials which put to test the performance pleasure and fertility, assuring the ninja warrior is not only fit for fight, but able to perpetuate his or her genes to the next generations. Most modern thinkers call this "Make love, not war", as a perspective that our branch of ninjas must also have a more sensual, peaceful use instead of the usual "peace keeper" role most military jobs are given.
Okuro had difficulties to memorize, of course, but he doesn't know that the female subjects chosen for the promotion test are going to be a nice, unexpected surprise. I wonder if she will be there...

Did I mention that a fail in any of the trails means a total fail and therefore means to start all over again in the next one? I think not, but these tests can only be done after any agreement in the yearly meeting of ninja masters. There was a five year hiatus because of lack of interest once. That would be too much, even for me.

May 15th

Okuro has gone to the town in order to find any of the secret gyms to prepare himself for the test. I used to work out in one of them a long time ago, but the whole formality and the straight, dull styling inside the facilities didn't make me feel any suited to it. I still prefer the lovely wooden and bamboo finish of my dojo. However, I hope this can give a controlled enviroment for Verde's test, as he will face most of this kind of situations. I just hope he doesn't get in trouble and girls start chasing him, I remember one time where I pleased 10 girls in one single session and they just couldn't stop anymore. At least my ninja skills helped me on that situation, but imagine if someone without such skills faces that. I wouldn't wear that kind of pants.

The reason these gyms or training places are hidden is because of the shame sex in public would be, as well as a form to train many sexual artists within the amazing powers and exercise of such arts. Any partner can invite you for a two partner (or even more) activity, in order to keep in shape. Most places are for free, but the best ones include payment for services, from cleaning, client grooming or even sexual assist and tool rental. However, these places tend to be minimal in style in order to work out the fantasies and psychologic pleasure of the subjects or clients. There are no beds, of course, but futons prove to be a nice platform to practise and train without too much hassle.

I hope Okuro is doing okay. The tests are coming close, and I doubt he will find a proper partner to train for the sexual technique mastery test.

June the 6th

The ninja tournament goes on. So far I heard that Okuro has found a new target to practise his arts and skills on. He must be very careful on the whole seduction part. This is a very tense part of the sex ninja job, with most of the success and breakthrough of the intercourse coming from the talking and foreplay part. As they say, you cannot build a house without a good foundation, and that applies to any knowledge. Most techniques won't work with most species either. Some females prefer to be treated rough as a way to check the health and strength of the mate and any viable ways to improve their pleasure reception in many ways possible. Other girls or females are more prone for sweetness or intelligence, so other ways of seduction, more subtle and talkative ones are required to achieve any progress at all. In other words, Okuro must not be pedantic or intelligent to aggresive or butch females or strong and rude to much sensitive and smart females. The objective is always the same though: satisfy the client at all costs and the most efficient, not quickest way possible.

i hope that brat does not get into a pinch already. I am not getting him out of the pan this time, he knows what he is getting into. He MUST at least.

July the 4th:
I met an old friend today. Guess that he, like me, needed to get his ninja license renewed on the master trials. We used to be teached by good ol' Kotaro-sensei. Man, I missed Kiba. He was a bit of a bitter end of a lollipop, but I couldn't put a finger on what he could have improved on his body, actually. I saw him very pumped up when he left the ninja academy to become a master on his own, so I couldn't stop asking:
"Kiba... uh... there is something..."
"What?"
"Uhm, are you sure you do enough exercise?"
"hmmmmph, are you calling me fat or what?"
"On, no no, it's just... you seem... different."
"Of course. Master Ishikawa was too soft."
"Hey, don't be so harsh on sensei. You should seriously have that checked..."
"What is "that"?"
"Well... you know... if you had the usual exercises like we were young, you could do something..."
"HMMMM!?"
"You need to breathe more. It seems constrained."
"You are a dick..."
Like I told you: a true pessimist. I didn't remember looking so eager at me though. I was just referring his abs seemed too thick and hard and he should have a more strict exercise routine. We are ninjas, not culturists. Those were the good times, though.

I'll never understand why did he look so acid on me...

July the 16:

This is bad! I heard today that Okuro is dealing with Hana Mizuki. She is not a dangerous girl by all means, but her techniques are. Hana is the protégé of one of the greatest sexual kunoichi of the region, Hinata Kikuda. The Kikuda family has been mastering the many techniques of female sexual stimulation for years. My sensei had to deal with two of high rank females at the same time in one night and he clearly told me to use extreme caution before facing one of these girls. And he was right

The Kikuda clan uses very sudden and violent sexual techniques as a method to obtain extra pleasure from the sudden changes caused by pain, pressure and teasing. I guess it is a way of sharing the pain and humiliation of being used like that. Many legends talk about their finest girls to please 15 men each in one night without a break, one after another. But also, the effect of their techniques is based on the sensitivity and outcome from stimulation.

However, the most interesting thing about the Kikuda clan girls is their ability to submit males without the use of restraining or sadistic sexual techniques. They just hit hard to stun and be in control. In all my times as a ninja I must confess I also had faced the girls of this clan, just one by one, and I had to be lucky if I reached to a tie situation. All I can tell is if you are able to gain dominance for a second with them, you already have my sympathies.

The aggressive stance of the Kikuda techniques comes from generations since the sengoku era, when soldiers, samurai and lords had their way with harmless innocent girls. The founder of the Kikuda clan was suddenly struck by this reality when her village was raided due to the treason of one of her girls. Due to their training, their bodies had become like the best lays for males: untouched, yet ready to withstand the rude outcomes from males. After such devastating events, the Kikuda clan leader began to develop their own violent sexual techniques in order to keep males at bay while gaining as much information as possible. It is said that the first drafts of such techniques involved torture and humiliation, but this has changed from a more personal matter to a specific set of skills.

For a normal male, the Kikuda techniques offer the same outcome as tantric sex, augmenting the pleasure of orgasms by the double, but for fit and better trained beings, like a ninja, it’s a very different story and an exponential difference: It can improve orgasm effects and flow 4 times at least. This is due to the better prepared and trained body and organs, which cause these reactions and flow to be improved. With Okuro's lack of experience and control, this multiplied effect would be devastating for him and his whole body. He could fall into an endless feast of non-stop sexual ravaging, completely unaware and paralyzed from the violent festival of lust, if that Hana girl is truly the right hand of the heir to the Kikuda clan leadership.

Hana is also very known as "The rose" inside her clan, as in having thorns. Her unusual pink hair and golden eyes have made her known as a true black widow, if any male allowed or, in this case, tried to marry her, of course. But the problem is not that her techniques are violent. Kikuda clan kunoichi are very possessive and dominant towards males, hence their need to satisfy the sexual arousal of males to get them under control (some kunoichi of this clan have even influenced daimyos this way). Her mind is not unbreakable, however. Okuro won’t have a chance if he doesn’t keep his head chill and do something in the case the drowns in that tar pit that girl gives as sexual pleasure.

I must find them before it's too late. Let's hope she hasn't dried Verde-kun the worst possible ways.

August the 3rd

I heard Okuro is still having matches and fights with that Kikuda clan girl. He must be very, if not extremely, careful. Kikuda clan kunoichi or female ninja are very aggressive when it comes to matters of mating. They despise any heavy dominant males, most of the time as they take it as an act of aggression itself while finding themselves doing their sensual job.

Since their hierarchy is based on the female dominance and control, as well as high military ranks across their lines, Kikuda clan females (like Hana Mizuki, Okuro’s partner now) tend to be rebellious against any order given by males: the more forced these orders are, the worst they might behave to such. In other words, they grow a nice pair against any male wolf going all alpha male on them.
Interspecies relationships are just for curiosity, while same species sex causes to be more emotional. Therefore, when Kikuda kunoichi face a male (and to be more specific, a wolf), they let their skills for dominance to flourish and let go. When a wolf is chosen, however, this is when things get awry.
This emotional state or trance makes Kikuda female wolves quite unstable, and when facing a male of their same species, things get dark almost in an instant. With this trance kicked in their system, one single female can act very aggressive towards her male, not only trying to control him by any means necessary, let alone him trying to “change the roles”. The last thing you would like to do while mating them is to actually take control and dominate them.

Reports and tales of fights with the Kikuda also prove their aggressive attitude as if it was almost hardwired on them: bruises, kick wounds, scars, claw-made slits and scabs, bites… High rank leaders have even killed many wolf males in the process due to their very sensitive and unstable attitude towards males with the chance to become alpha males with these girls.
Last time I heard someone tried to dominate a Kikuda ninja female was a wolf specialist in seduction and love drinks (as well as state of the art poisoning). He ended up six months in a hospital after his “partner” broke each and one of his bones just because he wanted to practice the most typical pose for our species: the doggy style.

If my sensei could barely survive from a fight (and a consequent trial to seduce those female killing machines, while he was at it), I wouldn’t have to explain you how I could recall the last time I faced such a fierce beast of a female wolf once I faced one of their most beautiful warriors. Her coat was like the full moon at the prettiest nights of the fall, while her hair was decorated in lovely leaf ornaments made by the best craftsmen. Once we hugged, and I approached to kiss her… she dropped her knee into my stomach, then my crotch, and jumped over my bent back, waiting and expecting for my spine to collapse from that brutal blow dealt with the heels of her paws. She ran away while I was face-down and unconscious over the muddy floor of the forest. I still don't understand how my jaw was out of place when I woke up, though.

Let’s hope Okuro does okay and doesn’t end up crippled like I could be… or worse.

August the 10th

Okuro has literally broken his bond with this Hana girl. I don’t understand how Verde could skip one of the most important parts for a gentle male to follow: charm.

Charm is indeed part of a ninja when it comes to seduction, not just when giving compliments or having a conversation with the target or subject of training, but it must be used at all times in order to keep the flow and make both sides to mate feel comfortable and keep trusting each other.
How do I know it was a lack of charm and gentleness? Well, Okuro told me about his argument and it went like this…

Hana “Who the hell are you to treat me that way? I am a lady, not one of your whores!
Verde: “What did you say!? I was just trying to show you my strength and capabilities!”
Hana “By slamming your crotch against my hips and tear me apart with that? Nice way for a show!”
Verde: “Well, you seemed to enjoy when sucking my dick, you ungrateful bitch!”
Hana: “Don’t talk to me like that, you pinhead! That’s why I can’t trust a male at all!”

This argument went on and on, but the point I am trying to explain is that you should never get angry when your sexual partner denies you something and grow into anger. This is where charm must be applied at all times, in order to resume the training and find new ways to stimulate the partner, instead of being frustrated for not being able to use your most used techniques of choice.

The case of the Kikuda females can be very delicate. Since the kunoichi or females rule with most of the power, these girls tend to be very proud of themselves, and like to be very dominant. Finding another dominant male (like me or Okuro) can end up in a real disaster unless there is some alternative or deal to fix.

There are many ways to keep dominant girls like Hana, in this case, by simply following some basic rules:

- Let them breathe. Give her (or them, in a multiple partner scenario) a break or some time to relax. This way she will find you even less aggressive than usual and making all parts more receptive to more steps and stimuli.
- Always check or ask for erogenous zones. Any kind of contact, from cuddles to bites can cause the tables to turn and show curiosity from her, as well as giving her the idea that you are not just going to “slam it in, finish inside, then run away”, also known as “the bad quickie”.
- Show her what you are made of. Sure, she might not like to get her front hole stuffed by many causes, but remember that your own member can be used as a sex tool, and that tool as well can give pleasure to both sides, as well as other holes to cover.
- Never EVER force to a position the partner dislikes. Unless you have been hired for a rape purpose on a mission, you always must respect the wishes of a female when it comes to get pleasure and train for it. If you break the flow during sex, there is a high chance she might go away (or end up kicked or punched, crushed, killed and, in very extreme cases, altogether.

I wrote this in a scroll a long time ago because of my several failures as an apprentice with Ishikawa-sensei. I really must bring this kid back to his tracks the best I can, before it’s too late.

October 12th:

This Kikuda clan girl Hana sure is tough. Last time I tried to convince her to give Verde another chance, I ended up almost beaten to death after she threw me around with one single hold. It was last week, at that place in the middle of the town where she hung around, and so far my stitches have been healed... but for my pride, that is surely going to leave a clear mark, I tell you.

My assistant girl and student Saki, of course, has taken care of me. She might look hard and responsible on one side (unlike her twin brother Yuki, who is more happy-go-lucky than anything) but she is sweet when help is on the way and never loses her spirit.

"You should try again..." she told me while patching me up each of my wounds. They were not many major injuries, as my bones seemed okay, I just felt a lil bit hurt on the physical side, now on the psychological, that was another story. She always had this attitude to "follow the rule book" when things got really bad.

My sensei left me clear one thing: during peace time, in order to compensate the lives we had shed in the purpose of hte mission, had to be compensated with the use of love, pleasure and mating in order to create new life and settle the new seeds for the place that had been harvested. And Saki's beauty reminded me all that in no time.

I had to try this at once, as I thought I was getting rusty on my skills, but I was glad by the result in the end. After making I was ready to go, Saki and I trained our sex skills like never before. We made it across the remaining hours of the day, without any second to stop. I plunged my shaft inside her countless times, bloating her insides with my almost endless amount of seed. And yet, I didn't realize how sharp Saki's skills could be until that day.

She had pleased me in ways I could never imagine, either with her hips or her mouth. As if she was almost worshipping me for all that knowledge and dexterity I gave to her after all those years. Her beautiful fur was shining with the light of the room as her muscles reacted to each ounce of pleasure I was giving to her, and so he returned them with the sweetest of moans back and forth across the air. Her rear and tail were not bad either, as I knew that one of her all-time fetishes was how she loved to be tugged from the bottom of her tail while following the instinctive features of the doggy style mating pose. Her breasts were the perfect size too, as she used them to accompany her mouth so I could feel the heat of her body wishing for that pleasing friction and could not stop bouncing as our hips clashed together in an almost vibrating pace.

Her insides were also like something I had never felt before from any other time I had practised with her. She knew the exact moment where she had to twitch her hips, I could feel the cervix pounding at the deep end as if she was predicting each of my thrusts, and she didn't even budge when some of the times we ended up knotted and finished inside her with a flood of my fluids bloating her belly. All she did was to return a smile to me every time I suffered an orgasm, wether it was inside her body or outside of her while using her limbs or her mouth to please me.

Just to think I fould those twins in the middle of the street, soaked deep under the heavy rain while they tried to survived in the lowest ends of the town streets, after they lost their parents due to some unfinished business with some rival ninja clans. It is not so strange among our job, it is surely a perk, but it is rare when the victims are a happy couple who have formed a family.
I could see those two twins trying to survive from discared food from restaurants and drinking water from the potholes in the ground. That was not the kind of life their destiny had for them, not for me at least. It got me back to the time my sensei saved me from that incident during the day I was born, many, many years ago.

The next years after that, I taught them each of the same techniques my sensei had taught me: training their mind and body to the shape of the most extreme ways of exercise, showing the wonders of the anatomy of many animal species, their utility while fighting or defending themselves from them, having their bodies ready for any unwanted contact or attempt to get pleasure against their will, or using seduction and persuasion together with many practical ninja skills such as cloaking, dressing and acting to ensure a nice success for their prime target and mission objectives. I was sure how my sensei felt with each success or failure within their training to become veyr efficient beast ninjas.

Compared to Hana, Saki was indeed a well trained girl. She can be pretty straight and likes to follow the right path, for sure, but compared to the savage and brute kind of girls like the Kikuda or the Murakumo female clans, Saki was like a rose with each of their thorns untouched: pretty to look and touch, as long as you were paying attention and didn't go too far. And still, I wasn't able to thank her for the result of her progress and experience, or not enough, as far I can recall.

After that day, I could never change my mind after I looked at her deep blue eyes and purple strings in her hair within a deep stare, while still being hard and prepped up again. Yet after a dozen of times mating with her, she just couldn't hold any breath and feel asleep with a wide, satisfying grin from one end of her nuzzle to another.

I feel so proud for her. How could I be so blind?

October 18th

I have been looking at Verde day-dreaming a lot lately. How do I know this? Well, as a ninja, one must know when the subject on sight is distracted or alerted in order to take the proper course of action. In Verde's case, he seemed quite off the usual mood and very distracted from his usual behavior and sometimes off the beat as he tired to train for all the possible candidates for the tournament that would decide the promotion of the practitioners on our techniques.

Distraction can be a very dangerous thing to play with, whether it is using it on our advantage to defeat or cross anything on our path or being submerged into it to cause us dougt and therefore, confusion. It is, without any trace of doubt, one of the deadliest features ninjas can use on their seduction techniques. Being distractive is destructive.

I guess he must feel something for that girl Mizuki we had met during the last several days. She sure looks the kind of girl a boy like Verde might find attractive just because of the challenge. I had met girls like that, and I don't want to prag about it in any personal matter, but, some can even turn you really crazy.

I remember each of the girls I have slept with, and damn if I had times where I couldn't stop thinking about them and the nice times we had together. But there is a sad matter to that, and it is the purpose of fulfilling the mission at all cost. Emotional bonding can cause actual struggles within one self and the others, whenever it was involved in any aspect to the last mission which the ninja was hired. Secrecy and love can lead to unexpected and not always well predicted results.

That is why most ninjas must try at least to surpress any emotional bonding as in many future tasks or missions it might involve someone he or she met or even engaged a social relationship with. And yet, the sensation of meeting that same being again causes this eerie combination of unexpected surprise and unpleasant discomfort, as it could mean that who you feel in love or engaged any social activity (whether a friend or a relative) might have been hired to become the obstacle.

This has lead many members of my profession to have nightmares or very unpleasant times during sleep. It would be not very mean to say that Hana Mizuki might be suffering nightmares from the peer pressure Verde and I gave onto her in order to use our powers of conviction. I went to that and I had to bite the bullet in more than once to get that through. Perks of the trade, I suppose.

I just hope all this confusion or daydreaming will cause any actual negativity into Verde's performance for the promotion tournaments. His pride (and damn well mine) are at stake so far.

Verde has been following a very light training too. Most of his exercises were all by himself, all alone. It is not a good sign, since it might mean he is very focused unto something. Hence my worry towards his thoughts with that girl, Hana Mizuki. Her clan, the Kikuda, are even more aggresive whenever a partner tries to go again to seduce and make everything possible to defeat them and their female pride. One of their sayings is very clear: "Once, one broken rib, twice, break the whole ribcage". Of course, this can be settling to very proud males (and Verde is nothing short of pride, per se) as it rises the stakes for the challenge, but can also mean certain death if you overcome any experienced member of the Kikuda clan. as my sensei would say during his gambling rush "Double or nothing".

Verde must also watch the force he applies when pleasing himself. His strength must not surpass the force of the walls of an average female, in order to simulate the proper conditions for erotic stimulation. Too much strength can cause a blockage on the vessels in the penis, and thus a lack of sensitivity. He is being quite careless about it and if he keeps going on for too much, it might cause a serious health condition for his overall blood pressure. I think his daydream might be the cause of his carelessness too.

In my most humble opinion, Hana is a true beauty for a beast. I am not kidding on this pun either. She is determined, straight and wants to leave clear she doesn't want to be controlled too much or being used as a tool. A true wild warrior among females, just like the main purpose of the Kikuda clan has always ought to for her main task force. Of course, that same clan has also caused her to be nothing but being aggresive towards males, which has turned her into a real bait to many possible males, no matter the size or the species.

I guess that's what happens when you raise a patch of roses and leave the thorns on. But that is the way of the Kikuda, and if no one respects such way (or even knows about it), he or she might end up in the worst and most undescribable of ways, or that's all I can day at least after my sensei and I had many tries and rides with these girls, most of them without a clear success.

I wonder if that Hana girl is still unpleased by the mere thoughts of our existence. But I can't divine that same such thing; I am a ninja, not a monk.

November the 13th

I have been researching along about this Hana Mizuki girl from the info I had been gathering through the Kikuda clan meetings and sneaking through the places she had been. As I thought, there was no wonder why she joined the ranks of the Kikuda clan without any important cause. It was all about family matters.

When Hana was young, she was involved in some assassination plot by some male ninja clan. She was in her late teens, a promising female on her family, and ready to take anything. Except that gruesome day her own parents were assassinated in front of her eyes. Just when she was about to be killed, the three ninjas in charge for the wetwork decided she was too pretty to be killed, and instead, she was decided to lay on the bed instead to be put into sleep.

She was raped by those three grotesque killers, one after another. She shed tears like she never did in her entire life. Her whole happiness and joy to live were turned instead into anger, an endless need for vengeance and a pain so undescribable, that death was a mere whim for her. All that happiness and optimism were taken away with her virginity, dropped by the gallon of tears she was pouring through her eyes and the steam coming from the breath of that unwanted pleasure, causing her the most traumatizing headache to the mind of anyone sane.

She was tore apart into all senses, the sole look of blood was so gruelling to her, that the scar left by that incident made her any gush of blood she saw the perfect starter for her deepest fear. All the pain, sorrow, fury and fear clasped around her head as if they intended to crush her head into a mushing pulp. Her unconscious side was left so marked, each and every night the memories of that crushing memento of her life made her shook into the worst of nightmares, all in a pale, colorless palette caused by all the sudden bitterness and the perverted intentions of her assailants.

Her innocence was wiped out into madness...

It is the burden anyone faces as a ninja, whether be during war or peace, fighting or not.

November 16th:

I've seen Verde cramming all the books about how to make less pain to your partner while having sex, in our library. Yuki was trying to help him, but I think Okuro was so focused on himself, he didn't even bother to hear him... or even me as I passed by.

Sure, pain is quite a problem during seduction and mating, but sometimes, when your penis is so huge and out of control, it happens to be a nuisance. Like all things around, everything needs balance, and that includes in many aspects of sexual intercourse: thrust, yaw, intention... all must keep the perfect amount, so the pleasure counteracts the pain caused by such.

In other words, the best moves while mating are the ones that deal less pain, but offer lots of pleasure. A good example is using very sensitive parts of the fur or skin. That's why nipple stimulation is a huge success on any couple. It brings huge pleasure but almost nothing on pain. More means less.

But I think Verde ignores the sad past that happened to that Kikuda girl, Hana. Sometimes the blind past of one's self can be so gruelling, no one even bothers to know what really happened. Rape causes to make disorders such as trauma based ones to make the scars in the mind go deep and even deeper, and thus causing a huge trait on personality that is never welcome. In Hana's case, she despises the huge dominant attitude of males, because of the mind-scarring experience she suffered as a young girl.

They always say it's better to go two steps back before going one forward, I guess.

November the 18th

At last, I was able to have some words with one of Hana Mizuki's mentors from the Kikuda clan.
Her past was more painful than what I expected.
Her parents were indeed killed the day she was born.
Once she knew who was the man who executed his parents, she decided to quench her thrist for revenge by killing him.
The sad part, though, was that the male per se had a thing for prostitutes... the younger, the better.

When she was decided to take his life, the killer knew her intentions and beauty. So he decided to scar her by ripping away her purity and virginity, just like she took off her innocence once she knew the truth.

This is something very common in the life of any ninja. Revenge can lead to a painful and uncontrolled anger, which causes real stress and focus problems. It is why the reason one must train as a child, in order to find balance, meet the urges and follow orders as mere discipline. However, some youngsters get hasty and do not think enough to realize the consequences nor effects that might lead to.

After all, getting rid of the weeds fast leads them to grow faster, as my sensei used to say.
It breaks my heart.

December 15th:

This whole investigation on Hana's past has lead me down memory lane.
I knew I had dealt with a girl just like her, only younger, many years ago.

It was the last year of the Great War, exactly 5 years ago from this day. That skirmish between the Kaneda and the Tokugawa corporations. Private Military Companies were out far of reach for both companies, but there also was the non-private force ownage treaty (which, despite the old constitution that had felt into crumbles, was banned by the highest heads of state) had left me to several intelligente gathering job. (Okay, I was a thief back then. I had to. Life costs went through the roof back then, besides the seducing part and all...)

I remember some faint noises coming from the room I was walking next to. Room #27, if I recall. I could listen those gasps of pain like whispers drilling in my ears. I had the master key stolen from the reception counter before, so I opened the door, and looked inside. There was nothing but the darkness of the room, covering a bed in the center as if it was the usual blanket. My eyes began to get used to all that black in front of me, so I noticed something terrifying, chilling through my belly and spine.

I could see a young girl, late 10s, trembling as if her body had been covered in frostbite. Her body was covered on sweat, bruises and seemed to be the source of the nasty, foul odor inside that room. I couldn't stop staring at that girl, as her voice could only create the most muffled groan deep inside her. As I got closer, I could see the faint steam coming out of her mouth, almost like if her soul was leaking outside her body.Her eyes were shut, and soon her trembling began to become slower. I could only ponder on what kind of monster could do such kind of thing.

I could do nothing but grab her naked body around to carry her and find the nearest healer or doctor to treat her poor body. It didn't matter to me if I was completely bare naked at that time, but I carried away that poor girl to the closest ninja healer I could find. Thanks to the gods up above, the ninja healer in charge for that city, Tadashi, was not sleeping at that time.

Ninja healers are kinda like how movies depict doctors working for the mafia or the yakuza now. I guess they took the inspiration from our healers for that. They work in completely secrecy, of course, but they only heal certain clan members due to their linkage on tradition. Tadashi had to make an exception as he saw me panting after running naked through the city streets tored down to rubble, completely naked and even showing an erection, holding the poor girl in my hands while her life was on a single, almost meaningless thread.

I remember his words as he performed some minor surgery.
"She is lucky... if you didn't find her breathing like this, her lungs would have collapsed in less than half an hour and be dead on arrival..."
"What happened to her?" I asked to Tadashi.
"She was one of us, but she tried to seduce someone and it went all wrong." he replied me "Bruises all over her body and the shock she was in meant she was tortured... furthermore, the stiffness on her thighs and crotch seemed that... she was brutally raped."
I gasped while looking away. Such a beautiful creature like her shouldn't have been taken her purity in such a rough way.
"But she will be fine." Tadashi kept speaking "Her ribcage is broken from a couple of places. Someone punched her hard while thrusting. Most of the bleeding seems some faint hemorrage, and she was on her safe days. She won't get pregnant, but who could bear the child of such monster."
"What should I do now, then?" I asked
"I'll take care of her. She will need several weeks, maybe a couple of months to recover. I'll leave her somewhere safe before anyone suspects anything wrong.
Tadashi then looked at me with a deep, almost blood-chilling stare "And don't report this to Ishikawa or any of the two-bit honchos around. You know what happened the last time brought a rival ninja female to one of our healers. Even I couldn't believe they were lovers... poor boy."
"Understood... Tadashi-san." as I swallowed in fear.
"I'll keep her sedated until she recovers. By the tattoos... she is a Kikuda clan girl. You are lucky to be alive." he replied to me again
"The Kikuda? The gravekeeper kunoichi!?" I said in shock.
"Yes... now leave before things get hunky dory! AND GET SOME CLOTHES, DAMN IT" yelled Tadashi at me.
And so I left.

Those tattos on Hana's body surely had pulled a switch on my memory, until I realized I had seen them before. That girl I saved five years ago, in the middle of the chaos, like an innocent soul about to lose its form into this world, that same poor wolf girl... was Hana Mizuki herself.

I feel so sorry for what Verde had to pass, and how my mind had played on me.
I guess that... memories are just like flowers. They bloom in the right time, but not when you expect they will.

December 26th:

I am having a hard time with a serious flu in bed. Muscles aching. Must stay in bed until it passes
All I can remember now is Verde heading away from the dojo.
I hope he is not trying to make some peace with that Hana girl...

Wish my painkillers didn't run out. The pain...

January 19:

A ninja sometimes must close his past and hide it away, just like a door.
Ever since we ninjas are born, our own bodies are taken to the extreme. Yet there are more boundaries.
Each time we cross such boundaries, our services get hired for the most selfish whims and wishes.
Despite such, the more desolate and harsh your childhood is, the better warrior you become.
You become aware on how powerful love becomes into the most dangerous two blades.
Yes, they can cut through anything, but can cause you wounds that are very rare to heal and disappear.
Love can be as sneaky and hidden as the most silent of shadows.
Casting behind you, embrace you, and yet, you cannot realize its presence before it's too late.
Some ninja realize that emotional bonds can be seen as unfit, as they jeopardize and defeat the purpose of the objectives during a mission.
Wether be a target or a mission partner next to you, love and emotions may cause unpleasant times during key moments.
But yet, it drives an unexpected strength in all of us, something that makes us fight with a purpose and courage.

Maybe that is why love causes two life beings to bond, besides the other natural causes that lead to create a next generation from matters in genetics.
Both minds desire to meld into one, no matter if it's in a physical, mental or even emotional state.
The soothing warmth, the feeling of safety, the sound of two hearts working together, lead to an almost transcendental state.
A state where mind and body work together to achieve the highest levels of bliss.
Where both bodies react and explore with each other, letting the flow of nature and instinct to lead them into realization.
Just like they bodies and minds work with each other, so do they souls over time. And that's when the bond becomes unbreakable.

Yet, sometimes, desire can lead to unmatching relationships, where one side takes over and forces the other one to not being able to choose or decide, just to be controlled by the dominating part of such pairing. This always end up in very unpleasant ways, not only because it causes an unbalance in mere questions and tasks, but may lead to scar the performance of the partner under control of the other one. Such pair is not a result of love, but for greed and selfishness from the power-hungry dominant partner.

"Nature makes love so beautiful, yet so complex." said my sensei once.

That is what lead the teachings of my sensei and his partners for hundreds of years.
And I don't feel any regret whatsoever.

January 21:

Every ninja squad must have their team mates or partners well chosen.
Sure, it is pure logic, as team bonds can determine how strong and efficient will such team perform.
But that also includes all kinds of bonds involved, such as love, anger or worry when it comes to the emotional kind of bonds.
Though the use of such emotions is somewhat restricted, these can bloom throughout the course of such tasks, hence it is somewhat surpressed by any means necessary.

When it comes to fights and sturggle, emotions can give a huge lead when it comes to deal with the many threats and dangers possible. Yet it also proves a hidden property which makes such things a great dissappointment.
No one cannot surpress his or her own feelings though. Not only it makes the mere sense of individuality to vanish thin into the air, but also cause a loss in awareness and even blowing someone's own cover when it comes to the mission.
That's why, despite sounding silly or childish, a good ninja must know the blazing fast properties of stage acting.

Building up a character can lead to a better self-control, as well as keeping such emotions in a limit. Since acting requires the cooperation of many individuals, the squad or team based structure of ninja strategy gets advantage from the use of such techniques, as they prove stealth is not only an art based on shadows and silence, but rather blending with the current location and situation.

And like all art and skills, such things can only be learned and perfected by spending hours and hours of training. After all, we come from the character "endurance", which prove that rather than being fighting senseless over the target is rather the worst of any considered options possible.

And by using the mere virtues of patience, quietness and persistence, may lead any brave warrior to succeed.

At least, that's what I can say when dealing with emotions in the middle of any given task.

January 22:

Verde, Yuuki and Saki have left to the application for the promotion test.

I miss when I had my first promotion test. Old man Goemon surely had me prepared for that day, even the month before the day for the test. Of course, I had my partner for my couple set and everything, but he had to be sure I was ready to sustain the same amount of pleasure he could give and receive in a usual week in just a couple of hours.

The promotion test does not only prove the sex drive of the appointed couple, but also the physical and mental skills for each of them. Rather than a matter of speed, it is closely related to efficient sexual intercourse and mastery of techniques, which prove the couple to exceed their rank among the most seductive ninja warriors.

Youth itself is very surprising. Your blood boils with vigorous forces inside just to keep all those nervous chills away, or at least, that's hoe I felt. I even remember one of the tasks given by my sensei. He had me three kitsune girls naked in front of me, dancing and showing their beauty... while I was holding a huge block of ice over my crotch. If my erection went gone after all three had danced and shown all they had to show me, I was a goner. Let alone the fact that I could just look at them, not touch or talk to them. And any of my sensei's tests had one rule engraved and hardwired: "you shall not release unless you are inside a female".

That was one test alone, and yet I miss the challenge and need for skill to pass such things in order to improve my finesse and power for later training.

I wonder where the Old Man must be travelling now...

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