Hi ya'll!

Been working on this for a long time.
Getting easily bored, I decided way back when to try and create something of my own.
Alas I wasn't good at drawing or rendering.
Then i got inspired by this:
https://e-hentai.org/g/180070/f81a9dd325/

So i started to fiddle myself with several parts of original art from all over the web,
using a collage-technique to make something new to my liking, learning to use brushes
and coloring in Photoshop on the way.
All my images since have been created this way, mostly modified by hand, pixel by pixel
taking up a lot of time and effort. And bringing me a lot of joy.
Finally I'm ready to share some of my images, just for fun.
Hopefully also yours.
I'm not on pixiv or anywhere else for that matter and the images in this gallery
have never been posted anywhere else before.
I found a lot of interesting material here over the years, this is my humble try
to give something back.
I do not consider myself an "artist", nor do I plan to become one.

If the images in this gallery make you angry, or confused,
or you're just curious about the authors interpretation,
I kindly invite you to please read the last page in the gallery for some clearance.

The text below is a copy of the text in the last picture, which I added to stay with the gallery
as an explanation. Might not be necessary, can't hurt either.
Maybe it's easier to read the "vanity-card" this way. If you like.

pic 1-79 with text
pic 80-158 no text
pic 159 "vanity-card"

Copy of text in the last picture:
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(IRL = in real life)
(BTW = by the way)
(BDSM = https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bdsm)
you know all that, for sure, but I'm not a fan of abbreviations.
Lazy garbage. Let's go ->

Warning:

this is lengthy and in parts kinda philosophical.

Welcome!

Given the strong nature of these images, I'd like to give you an explanation.

This is NOT an attempt at a justification. Haters gonna hate.
Nothing I can do about that.
I am also NOT trying to tell YOU what to think, nor can I.
I made these just for fun and I'm sharing them for you to enjoy
in whatever way you like. Once published, they're yours.
However, I owe it to the pictures, to at least explain the spirit
in which they were made. Because it is NOT obvious, or self-explanatory.
First of all, they are of a very strong sexual nature. Duh.
"Art" is a very global term.
I call it porn. In the sense that they were explicitly created for arousal.
If you don't like porn in general, or sex for that matter,
I can respect that. But consider that your time is probably far too valuable
to read this text, or complain about the pics and better spent,
reading a newspaper, blog, non-sexual comic, going for a run,
managing your stock-portfolio, enjoy nature, build a shelter for the homeless...
you name it. And let us sex-maniacs to our devices.
Tolerance is not a one-way street, you know.

Having said that, I'm aware, that my pictures are much more provocative in nature
than "vanilla" porn.
They contain among others themes that can be described as:
bdsm, torture, gore, spanking/whipping, hanging/breath play, electrocution, humiliation,
urination, drinking urine, forced feeding, scat, explicit insertions,
cosplay, metamorphosis and magic. Pfff. etc.

The very extreme among those can have VERY! different motivations.
Bear with me, if you please, I'm sure there are some interesting observations ahead.

Remember:
I am speaking just for myself, not others.
I'm describing ONE possible view - mine.
It might be rare, but there are just enough people on this planet
to assume it will be shared by some.

First, there is a HUGE difference between (our) reality and fantasy.
I'm guessing, that's not news to you.
But how exactly does it work?

To me, these images are a window into an alternate reality,
where many things are different. Physics work differently,
magic exists and so forth.
They are NOT an artistic depiction of OUR own reality.
Meaning: torture is not torture, scat is not scat and so on.
Even death & dismemberment aren't permanent or comparable to reality.
It's something else. Completely.
Ever seen one of those old cat & mouse cartoons?
Roadrunner/Coyote? etc.? Pick your own example.
One second cut completely to pieces, blown up by dynamite,
smashed by a huge boulder... the next running around like
a spring chicken. Like that.

Now, this is important, in my images the ultimate idea is the depiction
of the most extreme sexual stimulation by any means possible,
leading to a cascading explosion of orgasms and a state of mind on the border of
consciousness. And maybe set free some magic.

Feelings & Emotions in THIS "alternate reality"/fantasy can be very similar to OURS.
BUT: much more intense, NEVER harmful, almost always sexual in nature.
So, fear, pain, humiliation, helplessness and so on have the ONLY ultimate goal
of arousal & sexual stimulation.
"Torture" is NEVER used with the GOAL of inflicting pain.
Believe it, or not - I sincerely hope, you do -
ALL my pictures come from a place of LOVE. ALWAYS.

On that note:
Remember, this is MY view.
I have no doubt, that there are others like me.
And I have no doubt, that there are others with very different views.
I have not the slightest idea about percentages, just hope that
the REAL sadists are by far in the minority.
I am a very tolerant person, but I DO NOT condone (real)violence & (any)hatred.

Porn in general and especially the extreme variants are often said
to cause bad behavior. Fantasy depictions of e.g. rape & violence are claimed
to result in the urge to live out those fantasies in real life. And so on.
Sadly I cannot disprove that.
BUT:

Regarding porn in general, the main drive behind almost ANY life on our planet
is sex. Definitely in humans. No sex, no humans. What exactly is the reason
not to have fun looking at it? Maybe the fun part. Idk. 'nuff said.

Considering the extreme fantasies is more of a challenge.
Especially when young humans are confronted with something like that,
even more so without any context.

Still.
I myself had my first BDSM fantasies, when I was about 6 years old.
Remember it well. Not kidding. No idea where it came from, that was a
very long time ago. No internet back then.
Nothing "strange" EVER happened to me as a child, nor later. I'm sure of it.
Of course I learned the term "BDSM" MUCH later and the concept behind those letters.
But the idea has been with me since back then.
I would describe myself as well-adjusted, successful (enough), respectful, tolerant adult.
And "normal" whatever that means and whoever defines it. 9 to 5. 0815.

Btw:
I respect women. - scratch that -
I respect ANY gender, color, sexual orientation as long as it is not hurtful to others.
I even respect intolerant and hateful people (though not the intolerance & hatred itself).
Intolerance & hatred come from some kind of misunderstanding or misinterpretation, most of the time.
I am explicitly NOT saying dumb or less educated, which is often heard in this context.
That is nonsense. We all make mistakes now and again. Then, once a fight starts, we dig in,
shut down and tempers rise. Vicious circle.
The ONLY way to get rid of those things is communication IMHO. Dig yourself out, open the shutters
and talk. or be at the very least willing to listen.
One of many reasons for this "vanity card". Can't hurt to try. EVER.
The only things I really don't like are ignorance and people who WANT to be assholes, though
knowing better. FUCK THEM! Sadly still enough of those to go around.

But I digress. Wanted to make a point about BDSM & violence in fantasy.
As might be obvious by now, I'm also into BDSM in real life.
When I stumbled across the concept, many years ago, I immediately liked one phrase before all else:
SAFE, SANE & CONSENSUAL!
Do not endanger your health or that of others.
ALWAYS be mindful and respect your partner(s)!
When in doubt: MORE than usual.
If you're safe & act consensual, you're probably already sane.
Now it gets interesting:
My pictures show a lot of themes, that DO NOT LOOK SAFE, SANE OR CONSENSUAL.
That is because it's a different kind of reality!
What happens THERE IS in fact safe, sane & consensual. THERE.
IT WOULD NOT BE HERE! (IRL)

I would not do in real life, what is shown in my images.
Not, because it's dangerous, or forbidden or impossible, but because
I HAVE NO INTEREST IN DOING SOMETHING LIKE THAT IRL. AT ALL!! EVER!!
I like it, BECAUSE it's NOT REAL.
To clarify:
Sexual play with toys, bondage, some pain and (consensual) humiliation, pissing
even drinking piss, some light (very careful & knowledgeable) electroplay are part of IRL BDSM.
real torture, hanging, burning, dismemberment (and other gore) ARE NOT.
Definitely not in my book.
Oh and a little comment on scat:
I find it absolutely disgusting IRL. But, whatever floats your boat.
Just if you have to do it, know that eating it can be a very serious danger to your health.
In general speaking ALWAYS inform yourself as best you can, BEFORE you try something.
Today all those information are just a click or some swipes away.
Listen to grandpa. >geriatric mode off<.
In fantasy I love scat.
Because it symbolizes the moment, when a model literally loses her shit,
being so extremely overwhelmed by different stimuli, that she just can't hold it anymore.
Similar with pee. The difference being, that I do find squirting quite nice IRL,
presumably for the same reason.
Scat in fantasy at least in my images is very much part of the other reality.
Meaning it's NOT a depiction of the real thing.
If you or me were able to enter that realm physically (like e.g. in the movie Space Jam and vice versa),
THAT scat would smell to US like flowers, Vanilla, Strawberry, Chocolate and such.
Also be absolutely edible. Still wouldn't though.
To the model in THAT reality however it is a thing of utter humiliation, loss of control,
disgusting and shameful.

Finishing up...
Am I a pervert? Are you? Depends.
Perverted from what exactly? Who defines that?
Where is the scientific proof for the basis from which one perverted from?
I think not.
I think, I am very much inside the parameters of human behavior.
Not hurting anyone, at least not TRYING to be offensive.
respectful and mindful of others.
Most of all, I am NOT a violent person and do NOT have ANY urge
to hurt, insult, belittle or offend anyone in any way.
I do like, what I like, though.
If you like my pictures, THAT does not make you an evil person,
or a pervert either. I'm sure. Everything else is on you.

I hope, I was able to make plausible,
that I am not an evil or dangerous person.
Not because of the creation of - at first glance - maybe very disturbing images.
They were made with fun, for fun and with love, not hate!
In my opinion, the part of my own life's story about BDSM above proves, that it is at least possible,
to be subjected to intense sexual ideas from a young age, without becoming some kind of monster.
Btw: my parents never knew. ever. So, if YOU are a parent: you can't control everything. Deal with it.
Hmm...LET ME BE ABSOLUTELY CLEAR:
I AM NOT SUGGESTING TO DO THAT, OR ARGUING FOR IT!
There are very good reasons for protecting minors.
I'm just saying, that when it happens by accident, it doesn't HAVE to be a catastrophe.
I am also NOT saying, that it will work out fine in any case.
There is a LOT of bad people out there, regrettably.
I AM quite sure though, that the ball is dropped elsewhere and problems in society
are not fixable by forbidding porn in general, or depictions of fantasy specifically.
Even if they are disturbing and not easy to understand at first.
That's what patience, tolerance and communication are for.

If you REALLY read all the above:
THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR YOUR TIME AND ATTENTION!
I hope it was a bit worth it for you.
Enjoy the pictures.
Or do something else.
Just try to keep an open mind.

regarding the 3d-tag:
It's not completely wrong.
but I find it somewhat misleading.
In my other pictures I DO often rely heavily on CG.
But in this whole gallery is almost none present.
The body in pages 64 & 143 being the main exception.
Very few items were taken from real photographs,
e.g. the red Buttons, the wooden Box and the Wings.
Everything else (I think, checked just quickly), stems from drawings.
All the parts were cut out "by hand" pixel by pixel.
Modified to fit, colorized and so on.
There are about 100 moving parts in the more complex images,
from estimated half as many different source-images.
So for the most part, this is 3d in the sense, that it was created
with a computer, using Photoshop, but not created BY the computer.
Therefore I suggest a new tag, other:eCollage, which doesn't exist yet,
as far as I can see.
It is an old and legit technique for creating images, is it not?
I'll try to request creation of that tag.

Base +6, titslayer83 +6

It would be nice if the image quality was readable.

Base +7, Dicklessforeskin +11

Damn! You're absolutely correct. I checked thoroughly before uploading,
but afterwards only skimmed through the thumbnails. So I didn't even notice that,
until now. Everything looks a bit blurry and especially the red on black text is not very legible.
The reason seems to be the mandatory downscale to the .webp image format
in combination with the fonts not scaling optimal.
If you take a look at the original images, which are also available here,
you'll see, that they are clear as day and very much readable.
I do understand, that this means some inconvenient click-work, but have no idea,
what else I could do about it.
I've been myself looking mostly at the low-res versions of the other galleries here,
forever. Never really noticed, what a huge difference that can make, until now.
Will look more at the big picture(s) from now on. :)
So that hint of yours was very valuable to me, thank you!

Base +6, titslayer83 +6