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This chapter is really interesting. It's usually the case that the chapter title finds its way, directly or indirectly, into what is said or done during the chapter, but that's not done here. I think it's because it leaves the uncomfortable thought in the air, I'm assuming from Ueno himself: "Even if we did have sex, you wouldn't have been able to enjoy it." Kanako spent most of her middle and high school years believing that Chisaki was the one she could be properly intimate with, only for Chisaki to realize at the time they actually did it, that Kanako couldn't enjoy it then, either. In fact, Kanako might have found herself feeling irreconcilably empty after the act, unable to move forward the way Tsubomi and (eventually) Chisaki decided to do. Hell, the imagined scenario even has her getting flushed and excited, something we know she doesn't do with anyone, not with Chisaki, and not even with Ueno during the times she did torment him. I genuinely think Kanako will come to realize that she's asexual at some point.
I think there's truth to her enjoying bullying Ueno, but I think that's more for underlying reasons. The first, is that it's something Chisaki enjoys, so she enjoys it by proxy. The second real reason, and the central theme of every character in this story who is undergoing growth, is that it was consistent and convenient. Ueno and the friend group that tormented him got a lot of convenience out of that dynamic, but Ueno being on the receiving end and being the bullied person was the first to realize that staying stuck at that point in his life would be detrimental in the long run. The others slowly but surely came to realize how unhealthily dependent they were on that arrangement (and each other) in various ways.
I hope what Kanako said in this chapter was mostly in jest. If she still believes that maybe that outcome could have happened, it means she still has some soul-searching to do.
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